::: a dark alley :::

Monday, September 07, 2009

12:33 am

Egotistical

You call that a fight? "Weren't we having a fight?" I'm sure! Gosh, you're such an egomaniac.
-Saki to Madarame in Genshiken.

Madarame might be a little bit too conscious about his relationship with minkanjin (civilians; i.e. normal people), but I'm definitely an egomaniac.

I wish I could take a hint from Saki too... and stop being openly worried about what I make others feel, what I am to others, etc. Those are for private moments only. It's not important to them. Not until I start fixing myself up so that I can make positive impacts in the lives of others, and can stop being such a "sorry" person. Maybe that's the first habit I should do something about. Thank you, Alderic, for your constant reminding.

Still, I can't help feeling insecure, knowing I'm slowly drifting away from life and actually require three of my friends to pull me back in. I won't mention names. (First step of training myself to keep unneccessary things to myself again) Thankfully, I had a rather memorable weekend, compared to the weekends I have been having these past few weeks. (Oh, I remember going out with you last week, Jian Hong. And blowing my dough on a SCREENPLAY BOOK. Thanks ar XD)

On Saturday, Raina suggested going to relax and chill at someone's place. WeeSiong wasn't comfortable about offering his place, so I suggested mine. We ended up watching some Screw Attack videos... and with Raina dolling me up, trying her latest ideas... while WeeSiong plays UFO. (Hey the new life/spellcard/point system is really addictive. Nice one, ZUN) I fell in love with my new look immediately and was pretty happy that I could attribute it to her hard work.

Today (Sunday, actually), WS took me out to play the long awaited mobile suit simulation game (Kidou Senshi Gundam ~Senjou no Kizuna~) at AMKHub. It... was a dream come true. Swift controls, unimaginable cockpit. I became a Private after a training simulation at Side 7. Hurray. And the music! Ahh nostalgia. The most regretful thing was that I COULD NOT FIND THE HEADPHONES. WeeSiong had been radio'ing me all the while and hearing no replies.

"Oi! -hizzing- Alpha-tsu, outou shiro! Kurikaesu. Outou shiro! Kikoeru ka? KORRRA! -cracking-"
-REC Kurosa to REC Komori

Ahh... too bad it cost $5 for two short games. Killing bots. Oh well.

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::::::::::[Derf Shaya]::::::::

...A dark alley...

Upon turning into this ~~alley~~ from the busy streets, you realize that this area is totally ~~void~~ of light from the streetlamps and noise from the roads. You see a man in crumpled clothing. He wears a torn straw hat.
(Copyright 2005, Derf Shaya)

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best viewed in 1024 X 768 resolution. a brief history about the author pertaining to the theme of shadow of transcendence. it came about in the wee hours of the early morning while being whisked away into memories of the past etched deep within the mind. bittersweetness that tingled the tastebuds of her emotions and feelings, the only way out for true liberation from this reality is what is behind the shadow of transcendence; suicide. the taste of iron-rust blood coiled with the lingering bittersweetness is the only contemplation of which the simplicity of life has to offer in exchange for the shadow of transcendence. made in the heavens through one creator, an angel borne to serve man; fell from where it belonged to earth where its purity shadowed by boredom and nohing better to do.