::: a dark alley :::

Sunday, May 27, 2007

1:11 am

Today...

...sucked big time.

Had a late lunch and no dinner. Family was out all day. Brother ditched me for catching a movie with his love interest... haha, okay I promise not to tease you anymore, my dear brother.

Lonely.

Watched Onimusha. Later I visited IRC for some relief. Guess what, I almost had a good chat. One of the people had to act friendly to me for the most part, only to deliver an insult at the end.

Heartache.

I'm not an airhead. I don't use words to make myself look good. Why is it that each time, I try so hard to speak, someone has to feign intelligence and spit on me? No human is perfect. I wasn't even trying to impress a certain person. I was trying to talk about human perception and participate in active thinking. Even if you're really intelligent, you definitely lacked the wisdom to communicate and understand. Stop hurting others. Stop contradicting yourself.

Haha... I am resorting to pointless requests right now. What a retard I am.

It seems like I have not a single friend in this world, except Yang, Wee Siong and probably my cousin, Ze Kai. I don't want to have to pester them for my whole life. I tried to be strong by myself, but I failed. Neurosis got the better of me. I'm sorry, my friends...

I'm a zombie that is desperately clutching onto their feet. Someday, they'll have to kill me, to sever their ties with me.

"Can you stop being so melodramatic? Can you stop sprouting your grievances?"

Yes, I can. If I die. Sorry, Yang, for being the yellow. I don't know what that means, but...

I don't know anymore.

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::::::::::[Derf Shaya]::::::::

...A dark alley...

Upon turning into this ~~alley~~ from the busy streets, you realize that this area is totally ~~void~~ of light from the streetlamps and noise from the roads. You see a man in crumpled clothing. He wears a torn straw hat.
(Copyright 2005, Derf Shaya)

shadowy wishes

become a sharp programmer
be able to write stories
train up to be strong
be healthy

shadowy eyes

XKCD

shadowy figures

Anison Dream - JAM on!
Kai Wei
夢見る冒険者
聖なるレイナ降臨
若い詩人の歌
普通にはそんなことって…
君と巡り合いたいわ
Yang
Sho-kun
Jian Zhou
Jun Yuan
Amanda
Chrispin
Krystle
sweix
Ze Kai
Jing Yuan
Boon Ling
Kang Wei
-Pow-

shadow links

blogger
tag-board

shadow stages

NarutoMUD - 12 (Student)

-声で遊ぶコミュニティ-

make some sense

Layout designer's notes...

best viewed in 1024 X 768 resolution. a brief history about the author pertaining to the theme of shadow of transcendence. it came about in the wee hours of the early morning while being whisked away into memories of the past etched deep within the mind. bittersweetness that tingled the tastebuds of her emotions and feelings, the only way out for true liberation from this reality is what is behind the shadow of transcendence; suicide. the taste of iron-rust blood coiled with the lingering bittersweetness is the only contemplation of which the simplicity of life has to offer in exchange for the shadow of transcendence. made in the heavens through one creator, an angel borne to serve man; fell from where it belonged to earth where its purity shadowed by boredom and nohing better to do.