::: a dark alley :::

Sunday, October 14, 2007

1:56 am

Summary

New acquaintences:

Jeremy Lim - fellow intern. A very assertive guy... who wants to become a pilot in the future! "Pilot" and "In the future"? Why do I keep thinking of Isamu? Anyway, quite an interesting fella but I have more to know about him. He looks soft and friendly on the outside, but I think he's quite the challenger.
Xiaoyan - fellow intern + project leader. Pretty chatty. Has Motoko's hairstyle and sharp eyes.
The others are kinsoku jikou desu~.
Got to become more friendly with Liu Qiang and Pok too, since we'll be seeing each other everyday.

Major events: Attachment started. Awesome orientation. Training began on the final day after the walkthroughs about interfacing with a certain system. Actually, it was more of a "go read it yourself" instruction rather, than training.

Major decisions made: I described myself to the seniors as someone who loves programming and exploring programming languages. I start to doubt my own description (as usual, after every description made about myself). Well, they have sort of assigned me a solo job. I hope I get at least some interaction with certain teammates. I've also described to one other person that I'm one person who is obsessed with possibilities.

People I have offended: Ferren. I find myself always offending such people. People who are rooted in their beliefs... -counts on fingers- Well, that makes up about 90% of my friends. When I have already chosen to leave my options open for philosophical matters, I already knew that I will upset a lot of people like this. I've yet to apologize to these people: (- Name (reason for getting offended))

- Angie (for being worried about me)
- Krystle (for being kind to Angie)
- Ferren (for insisting that a certain person has to be accepted by her, not loved naturally)

Yes, these people are kind to me, but they tried, one by one, to break down my already weak faith. Which is one of the things I treasure most in life.

Thank you, you guys are awesome. It's just not the right time for you guys to be that nice to me, I guess.

People I am thinking about:

Yang - How is she doing right now? It is hard to know what she has been thinking about, though I somewhat know. I know that I am no longer (and probably never had been) playing a role in her life, since she takes care of many others. That isn't my concern now, though used to be as she was the only one I could confide in. I hope she is having some new adventure somewhere. Mwahahaha. Actually, I hope she's having enough rest and lesser worries.
Kenneth - This senior of mine never fails to make me smile. And I heard he has an exam coming up. Good luck to you, wherever you are right now! (Sleeping soundly on a comfortable bed, I hope.) My skills in suona improved thanks to you, though I'm still "mada mada dane" (sorry Jiankai, I had to use your quote again)
Chrispin - I bet no matter how hard I try I'll still be lightyears away from her.
Choon Wee - We were planning for Alan's birthday party. Now I forgot about everything.
Wee Siong - You're still watching anime right now, aren't you.

Truthful comments about the mystery person:
Two words: Psychic Impression. I need to have more of it. I feel extremely docile in front of her, feeling the pressure which is greater than those of Char Aznable, Haman Karn and Paptimus Scirocco combined.

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::::::::::[Derf Shaya]::::::::

...A dark alley...

Upon turning into this ~~alley~~ from the busy streets, you realize that this area is totally ~~void~~ of light from the streetlamps and noise from the roads. You see a man in crumpled clothing. He wears a torn straw hat.
(Copyright 2005, Derf Shaya)

shadowy wishes

become a sharp programmer
be able to write stories
train up to be strong
be healthy

shadowy eyes

XKCD

shadowy figures

Anison Dream - JAM on!
Kai Wei
夢見る冒険者
聖なるレイナ降臨
若い詩人の歌
普通にはそんなことって…
君と巡り合いたいわ
Yang
Sho-kun
Jian Zhou
Jun Yuan
Amanda
Chrispin
Krystle
sweix
Ze Kai
Jing Yuan
Boon Ling
Kang Wei
-Pow-

shadow links

blogger
tag-board

shadow stages

NarutoMUD - 12 (Student)

-声で遊ぶコミュニティ-

make some sense

Layout designer's notes...

best viewed in 1024 X 768 resolution. a brief history about the author pertaining to the theme of shadow of transcendence. it came about in the wee hours of the early morning while being whisked away into memories of the past etched deep within the mind. bittersweetness that tingled the tastebuds of her emotions and feelings, the only way out for true liberation from this reality is what is behind the shadow of transcendence; suicide. the taste of iron-rust blood coiled with the lingering bittersweetness is the only contemplation of which the simplicity of life has to offer in exchange for the shadow of transcendence. made in the heavens through one creator, an angel borne to serve man; fell from where it belonged to earth where its purity shadowed by boredom and nohing better to do.